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Ok, it’s been months since an update, i sincerely (not actually sincere) apologize; there’s been stuff going on and i haven’t been able to post (read: i’m a lazy ass fucker so i kept procrastinating the posts). Now, it’s obvious that i  can’t keep up with a streamlined post system as i’ve tried before; as much i could try for weekly updates, that’s too much until i figure out what to do with the blog.

Basically, i’ve used the blog for personal blogging and to advertize the projects i usually work on before,  but now that those aren’t enough i’ll have to find a different source of material to keep on a regular posting scheme.

I’m not up for plagiarizing and ripping other blogs, so i’ll have to be “original” for this one time.. I’ll think of the possibilities and start the new series of postings as soon as i can (hopefully, less than a week).

Ar.

Demanding Excerptions

I’ve been reading some semantic treatments lately, philosophy has always been really attractive to me, i even think i might go and get a major in it (and i probably will), what i like the most about semantics or philosophy in general is that nothing is an actual fact, just a train of though that could change directions at any moment, and flip your conception of reality around; semantics mostly teach us that everything is relative, what you think is may not be for some one else, because in the end what is and what isn’t when you can’t even define the verb to be.

But that’s what i like, everything is uncertain and not only in semantics but lately in life too; so many options, so many offers, yet so few goals. I’ve never been the kind of guy that actually cares, in general, I’m usually ok by not giving a shit about anything, and life has been good to me like that, but lately, everything is distorted, I’m not sure what to think or what to do, society’s preconception of what life is supposed to be makes my actual life get dull and repetitive, I’m looking for new experiences but i only find more of the same I’ve already lived or what I’ve been told i should live, but what if i want something different?

Sometimes i wonder. People live their life based around social achievements, good jobs, good houses, good cars, even love is treated like a prize to wave around other people’s faces, and I’m not completely against that, some people feel the need to show they’ve accomplished something, and it’s part of everyone’s psychology to search for acceptance (a psychological submission current society has created), and if we don’t have that stuff obviously it wouldn’t be so fun for some of you guys out there; but i can’t help but to think that there has to be something else to life; going to a good college for example, is it really that important? i agree college is really important, and education is a crucial part of life, but why should people be labeled because of the things they do or do not accomplish?

I’m not much of a metaphorically deep guy, i do believe in God and such, but I’m not gonna rant saying that we come here with a “mission” because that’s not what i believe in, but i do want to believe that there is something else other than what society has built in our minds to be “life”.

Live, Study, Work, Marry, Raise and Die. Really? I agree that we need some sort of study degree, living in ignorance isn’t good at all, and i also believe love is the first most important in the list, but is that really just it? Shouldn’t there be some something else? Is life really about proving society what you are capable of? Shouldn’t we care about being happy and enjoying the ride rather than getting to the destination?

What I’m trying to say is, i don’t know what to do now, i don’t want to live life just to live it, yet i don’t have any other reason to do so, i don’t care about social accomplishments, should i just drift from now on? just go for meaningless achievements?

Sorry for the way too emotional and uberly nonsensical post today, but i had those thoughts buzzing in my head and i had to let them out, also, i hadn’t posted in some time and i guess any post is good at this point.

Ar.

Hello Random Stranger…

I’ve been going over to Omegle a lot lately… It’s an awesome place to just go and have a random conversation for a while, and some of those can actually be pretty epic..

Right now the place is crawling with Trolls and  /b/tards but i guess eventually they’ll forget about it, even though, it’s really addictive to just go there and chat, even if all the stranger does is scream “I WANT ANUS PUDDING” over and over again, you can actually get some fun out of it..

Ar.

Retrograded Symbolism

I’m tired. I’m just so fucking tired of people trying to find some sort of bizarre hidden meaning to your simple regular everyday normal behavior… And i fucking hate Retrograded Symbolism.

Lately people has this obnoxious need for hardly trying to understand other people, which i accept and comprehend because that’s just simple knowledge too, and i am on that hunt for knowledge myself; but i search for information in places i actually know i will find information, if i’m looking for a map of New Zealand i am not going to go and grab a piece of used toilet paper and try to figure out the shapes of the shit in it so i can get directions towards some possible stablishment where i can be guided to another unknown location where i will actually find someone that can tell me where to find what i’m supposedly looking for; because that would be fucking stupid!

But people (in general) just doesnt seem to understand that, i mean, they just keep trying to discover some kind of obscure and unseen meaning in your gestures and such, wich is fucking ridiculous because you wont find one; if i blinked, it’s because i fucking wanted to blink or simply because my brain gave me the impulse to do so… Me blinking doesnt have any other meaning than my ocular lobe needing some cleansing, but people doesnt fucking understand, they just think, and they are sure that they are right, that because i blinked there must be some intrincate opressed feeling inside me that is rushing to burst out and so i had to hold it in…. by blinking…. How stupid is that?

Well, it’s really fucking stupid if you ask me, if someone wants to express something they just do it or they just dont, people is not gonna try to secretly hide some deeply oppresed feeling yet give subtle hints of it so you can go unveloping his actions as a freaking onion; unless they are melodramatic fucks.. or serial killers…. Either way, you are not gonna understand it, you dont have what it takes to look deep into someone’s soul and just by analizing their actions magicly understand what that person’s life is all about… That’s why people always find a way to express themselves, one way or another, if you realize something about someone it is because they want you to know it… So i just wonder, why the does some other people think that they can discover if you are hiding shit? and why the fuck do they think you would be hiding shit from them? It’s stupid, just by analizing my hand gestures you wont automaticly know that i am screwing your sister, or just because of the way i walk you wouldnt know that i am a bird molester…

So i wouldnt mind if strange people were trying to mentally figure me out, because in the end they just wont be able to do so.. What actually is frustrating is when close people to you try to do it..

Would i have a reason to hide the fact that, for example,  i’m secretly a Satanic worshiper? Yes i would certanly have a reason to hide it, from the public in general, but, i would let people close to me know that i am what i am…

So, yet again i ask, why in fuck’s name does people close to other people think that there is some sort of freaking sinester retrograded symbolism in our personality?

Yes, i do know that psychologic behaviour studies can actually bring some information about someone’s inner, deeper and darker feelings, but you people (in general) are not fucking psychologist so stop trying to do shit that you cant actually do..

I swear there is no symbolism here, snow is just snow, and acting gay just means that you are gay… No hidden meanings in life, none at all…

So, just stop it, just fucking please do stop…

Ar.

Forget Randomness

“-I’m gonna make this a really sentimental blog now, i promised myself not to do that but, you know what, fuck it.. This is going to get gay as shit, so if you were a constant reader and you hated my mushy posts gtfo now…-” I’m not really sure where i read that, i know that it was on some stupid emo blog, but i think it may fit the situation.. Its been some time, but im gonna start writing again… Sadly its not going to be what i used to write, I’m gonna go personal again, I’m sorry for the people who doesn’t like that, but that’s how its going to be now..

That being said… Lets do it…

Lets begin by saying that i used to have an incredibly boring life, i had a terrible monotonous routine every day, making each day the same, there were no remarkable aspects and i really hated it, but i wasn’t brave enough to just change it… But in the last few months my life kind of got upside down, i mean, from living an empty meaningless life, i am now enjoying it like i never have, and for the first time in my life I’m not completely apathetic to everything that surrounds me… (kindof, its not like I’m a totally different person, but, that did happen, but I still don’t really care about anything)

Why? all that change…. How did it happen? I’m still not sure, but it just did… I met new people, i made new friends, my girlfriend broke up with me, I went on trips, I did stuff i hadn’t done before, I fought with other friends, I made up with them again, all my geeky friends got girlfriends, I met some of them, I realised that I wasn’t in love with someone I thought I was in love with, I returned to /b/, I became a fan of 4chan, I stopped playing online games, I significantly diminished my console gaming too, I started watching new tv shows, I saw movies I didn’t want to see before, I tried to learn how to dance, I failed, I realised that there is much more important stuff than my grades at school, I still try to get good ones, I still fail at that too, I finally made up my mind about my future, I still don’t care about it, I got new expectations, I started looking up to different people, I started role playing, I started helping other people with their love lives, I think I was useful most of the time, I did something with my hair, I got new clothes, I changed my style, I stopped writing in my blog……………. And all of that, in just months….

Looking back i kindof understand how it happened, i changed my attitude, i acted different towards some stuff… And that changed my life completely…

You may ask yourself why am i writing on the blog again, basically, because i need to do so… So much stuff has happened and i need to vent out.. And i will do it here, most of the people that knows me doesn’t know that is me who writes this blog, and most of the people that reads this doesn’t know who i am..

So.. Hey guys… Fuck you all, I’m back…

Ar.

YouTeam

So I forgot to tell you guys, the CT got a YouTube page a few weeks ago, for the next few weeks we will post some random videos until we have the machinima ready, so until then, enjoy some gaming goodness.

Ar.

(oh BTW we are posting on a weekly basis (every saturday) so there arent many videos there right now)

Eyecandy

Is it just me or Lana is hotter than ever?

I have always though that Kristen Kreuk (Lana Lang in Smallville) is a really beautiful woman (read: unbelievably sexy) but seriously, you have to admit, she is looking goooooooooood…

I mean, yeah, I must admit that I’ve always liked my girls with short dark hair, but come on, there is no way you cant say that she is extremely hot.

Also, wow, for that chapter, totally awesome.

Ar.

(Just in case, CW logo belongs to Warner Bros. Entertainment, Inc) (and.. Kristen Kreuk’s face belongs to…. Kristen Kreuk?)

That’s not a proper analogy

Just some conversation Acglaphotis and i had a few days ago. Most of our conversations are like these, totally random….

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<Acgla> hai sup

<Ar> sup

<Acgla> did ya hear? MGS4 for the xbox

<Ar> OMG really?

<Acgla> yap, ps3 has no gaemz now

<Ar> lol that should teach sony not to fuck up awesome brands

<Acgla> did u hear too? little big planet got delayed because there was a muslim song and muslim people BAWWWW’d about it

<Ar> lol wut?

<Acgla> sony has no balls, and without gamez it has no spine either, they’re like spongebob

<Ar> loooool

<Acgla> and they lost ffxiii exclusivity too

<Ar> yah, thats awesome, i like the 360 more everytime sony loses a brand, i mean, i liked the 360 since the beggining, but now i like it even moar… i mean, what else could we want? now we have it all..

<Acgla> i want motherfucking microshit to open the bitch and let me install linux without fucking it up

<Ar> lol, tru dat, i want it too, but it aint gonna happen for a while

<Acgla> for a while? IT’S NEVAH GONNA HAPPEN it’s never gonna happen it’s never gonna… *cries*

<Ar> lol it happened with the first xbox, why shouldnt it happen with this one too?

<Acgla> we hacked it, they didn’t open it

<Ar> well yah, but something is something, right?

<Acgla> lol

<Ar> i mean, what would you rather have, a really hot slut you do every day (with no STDs) or a really hot chick that taunts you all the time but nevers gives in?

<Acgla> depends

<Ar> on?

<Acgla> is the hot chick my gf?

<Ar> well, yah, both of them are, but the hot chick wont even let you get to first base, i mean, not even a kiss..

<Acgla> is she awesome? like, does she play halo? or ff? or is she a GAME DESIGNER or (less awesome) a playboy bunnny?

<Ar> er… both the slut and the chick are pro halo players, pro ff players, pro “everything” players, pro game designers and “pro” playboy bunnys, but remember the slut let you do her, so, imo, she is awesomer

<Acgla> do i get to hang out with the slut?

<Ar> yah, with the chick too

<Acgla> how slutty is the slut?

<Ar> like, really slutty, but just for you

<Acgla> k, the slut then

<Ar> see, then its better a hacked 360 with linux than a not hacked 360 without linux

<Acgla> that’s not a proper analogy

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Yes it is… isnt it?

Ar.

Procrastination

A quick post about…. Meh, I’ll write it later…

(And thats the reason why i havent posted lately)

Ar.

Complete Disappointment

 

Since the announcement of Mercenaries 2 I was really excited to see how it would shape up, then on the E3 previews I thought it would be one of the best games of 2008 because of the many possibilities and open world destruction, but now that it has been released and I have had the time (and patience) to play it I must say that I’m utterly disappointed…

 

Not only the game is full of bugs and glitches but the main story is weak, shallow and extremely repetitive. It’s obvious that Pandemic Studios aimed the game to be a sand box of mayhem (and for some people that may be an excuse to the terrible story line) and the best way to deliver that is with an accessible open world game (I repeat: ACCESSIBLE). Pandemic managed to recreate Venezuela to a point and they created a huge map to explore but you will be better not. The world is terrible to explore either on cars or helicopters but even worst if you go on foot; your cars will be blow up by random unseen enemies, your helicopter will just disappear with no apparent reason and if you decide to walk you will be shot on sight even by friendly soldiers. Also the fact that you cannot always instantly transport through the world is frustrating because of the aforementioned reasons.

The gunfights are unsatisfying and lousy, and you may as well just get close to the enemy and melee it because of the terribly stupid AI, but if you decide to shoot you will encounter weak weapons and cheap damage consistency, it’s easier to hijack a helicopter than to destroy it (unless you are flying the helicopter in which case the enemy missiles will never miss).

 

If you play the game just to blow stuff up, then you are about to be disappointed as well; you will be penalized every time you kill a civilian and if you hit any guy from a faction you may as well restart the game; when a faction gets angry at you won’t get any missions from them and eventually this will stop you from completing the main story. If you don’t care about this and just want to create mass destruction you are out of luck; the grenade launchers and all heavy damage weapons have way too limited ammo, so if you get your hands on one you will not be using it for too long. If you try to launch an air strike you will suffer because of how hard it is to just ask for it, you probably won’t be able to get close enough to the target or you won’t have time to line it up without being shot.

 

Because of the lousy AI you won’t die too often, because you can just run a few meters away and recover without the enemies even trying to follow you; but don’t get me wrong, you will die (a lot) but not because of being shot or blown up by the other guys; one of the many frustrating glitches of the game is that at any given moment the game will just kill you even if you still have some health left and there are no enemies close by…

 

If you can ignore the many bugs, the terrible story and the weak AI then you may find the missions somewhat interesting, the first few hours, the game is terribly repetitive and after a while it just keeps throwing at you a bunch of lookalike missions for you to do. And even if you can look over that too, you will find that the voice acting is awful, sometimes the FPS may go too low and all the main characters are the same (with just minimal differences) and the secondary ones are pretty much useless (mainly the mechanic).

 

Even over that Mercenaries 2 could be an enjoyable game for some people, even I had some short whiles of fun, but in the end Pandemic Studios just managed to deliver a disappointing unfinished game that its just not worth playing…

 

Ar.