I’m tired. I’m just so fucking tired of people trying to find some sort of bizarre hidden meaning to your simple regular everyday normal behavior… And i fucking hate Retrograded Symbolism.

Lately people has this obnoxious need for hardly trying to understand other people, which i accept and comprehend because that’s just simple knowledge too, and i am on that hunt for knowledge myself; but i search for information in places i actually know i will find information, if i’m looking for a map of New Zealand i am not going to go and grab a piece of used toilet paper and try to figure out the shapes of the shit in it so i can get directions towards some possible stablishment where i can be guided to another unknown location where i will actually find someone that can tell me where to find what i’m supposedly looking for; because that would be fucking stupid!

But people (in general) just doesnt seem to understand that, i mean, they just keep trying to discover some kind of obscure and unseen meaning in your gestures and such, wich is fucking ridiculous because you wont find one; if i blinked, it’s because i fucking wanted to blink or simply because my brain gave me the impulse to do so… Me blinking doesnt have any other meaning than my ocular lobe needing some cleansing, but people doesnt fucking understand, they just think, and they are sure that they are right, that because i blinked there must be some intrincate opressed feeling inside me that is rushing to burst out and so i had to hold it in…. by blinking…. How stupid is that?

Well, it’s really fucking stupid if you ask me, if someone wants to express something they just do it or they just dont, people is not gonna try to secretly hide some deeply oppresed feeling yet give subtle hints of it so you can go unveloping his actions as a freaking onion; unless they are melodramatic fucks.. or serial killers…. Either way, you are not gonna understand it, you dont have what it takes to look deep into someone’s soul and just by analizing their actions magicly understand what that person’s life is all about… That’s why people always find a way to express themselves, one way or another, if you realize something about someone it is because they want you to know it… So i just wonder, why the does some other people think that they can discover if you are hiding shit? and why the fuck do they think you would be hiding shit from them? It’s stupid, just by analizing my hand gestures you wont automaticly know that i am screwing your sister, or just because of the way i walk you wouldnt know that i am a bird molester…

So i wouldnt mind if strange people were trying to mentally figure me out, because in the end they just wont be able to do so.. What actually is frustrating is when close people to you try to do it..

Would i have a reason to hide the fact that, for example,  i’m secretly a Satanic worshiper? Yes i would certanly have a reason to hide it, from the public in general, but, i would let people close to me know that i am what i am…

So, yet again i ask, why in fuck’s name does people close to other people think that there is some sort of freaking sinester retrograded symbolism in our personality?

Yes, i do know that psychologic behaviour studies can actually bring some information about someone’s inner, deeper and darker feelings, but you people (in general) are not fucking psychologist so stop trying to do shit that you cant actually do..

I swear there is no symbolism here, snow is just snow, and acting gay just means that you are gay… No hidden meanings in life, none at all…

So, just stop it, just fucking please do stop…

Ar.