I’ve been reading some semantic treatments lately, philosophy has always been really attractive to me, i even think i might go and get a major in it (and i probably will), what i like the most about semantics or philosophy in general is that nothing is an actual fact, just a train of though that could change directions at any moment, and flip your conception of reality around; semantics mostly teach us that everything is relative, what you think is may not be for some one else, because in the end what is and what isn’t when you can’t even define the verb to be.

But that’s what i like, everything is uncertain and not only in semantics but lately in life too; so many options, so many offers, yet so few goals. I’ve never been the kind of guy that actually cares, in general, I’m usually ok by not giving a shit about anything, and life has been good to me like that, but lately, everything is distorted, I’m not sure what to think or what to do, society’s preconception of what life is supposed to be makes my actual life get dull and repetitive, I’m looking for new experiences but i only find more of the same I’ve already lived or what I’ve been told i should live, but what if i want something different?

Sometimes i wonder. People live their life based around social achievements, good jobs, good houses, good cars, even love is treated like a prize to wave around other people’s faces, and I’m not completely against that, some people feel the need to show they’ve accomplished something, and it’s part of everyone’s psychology to search for acceptance (a psychological submission current society has created), and if we don’t have that stuff obviously it wouldn’t be so fun for some of you guys out there; but i can’t help but to think that there has to be something else to life; going to a good college for example, is it really that important? i agree college is really important, and education is a crucial part of life, but why should people be labeled because of the things they do or do not accomplish?

I’m not much of a metaphorically deep guy, i do believe in God and such, but I’m not gonna rant saying that we come here with a “mission” because that’s not what i believe in, but i do want to believe that there is something else other than what society has built in our minds to be “life”.

Live, Study, Work, Marry, Raise and Die. Really? I agree that we need some sort of study degree, living in ignorance isn’t good at all, and i also believe love is the first most important in the list, but is that really just it? Shouldn’t there be some something else? Is life really about proving society what you are capable of? Shouldn’t we care about being happy and enjoying the ride rather than getting to the destination?

What I’m trying to say is, i don’t know what to do now, i don’t want to live life just to live it, yet i don’t have any other reason to do so, i don’t care about social accomplishments, should i just drift from now on? just go for meaningless achievements?

Sorry for the way too emotional and uberly nonsensical post today, but i had those thoughts buzzing in my head and i had to let them out, also, i hadn’t posted in some time and i guess any post is good at this point.

Ar.